words

i love my melissa darling (: she's e best

anyway. i really think that people need to understand the impact of what they say. to some people, it might be a joke, a sarcastic comment, a taunt. but to the recipient, it really hurts. it hurts more than physical pain. i've seen what words can drive people to. i cannot forget the scars on the arms. the lines. dark and deep. and it really upsets me to know that it could be so bad.

when u're on this downward spiral. heading into nothing-ness. and u're trying so hard to stand up. to get back up. all it takes sometimes is just one comment to push you off the proverbial cliff. one insenstive untimely comment. and there you go. back down to the bottom again.

just starting on my grey's anatomy marathon. and there was this episode where there was ammunition in this guy's chest. and meredith asked, what if today was your last day to live. what if you slept tonight and never woke up. what would you do today. who would you see. would you die happy. i think partly why i've been so upset lately is cos i've been unhappy of how i'm spending each day. i'm waiting for my life to begin. and i feel like i'm wasting precious moments doing things (like As) that i really don't care about.

and then there was the question about who would i see in that moment.

: green eyes :: coldplay :